Yesterday was my 1 year anniversary with my boyfriend. I made him a scrapbook of all the pics we took together throughout the year. I gave it to him, and he didn't even look at it, or bother looking at it. Yesterday was a mess. I tried to ask him why he was in such a bad mood... I got "I had to go shopping and im tired". He took a nap after, so I dont see why he was still tried.
And so, today, I took a day off from work, JUST for this day thinking we would do something together later on for our anniversary. Yesterday I had to work, so I couldn't do it then. But instead it was one of our friend's birthday and we celebrated. I drank and he did as well. I got to a point where I was drunk ish, but I stopped and sobered up a few hours later. He... well, he just kept going. I gave him food, told him to slow it down... and the night ended with him throwing up, and sleeping on the back seat of the car. (He just went home by the way).
To finish off my rant,
He did not give me anything yet ( as in a gift ), got drunk on the day I told him we should do something together, and completely just ruined everything.
I know its the thought that counts... when there is a thought. He has no fucking "thought", or a mind to go along with it when it comes to showing any kind of appreciation.
Sometimes I think guys are all the same. Selfishness runs in all of us, but some just love to bask in it.
I don't know why I am making such a big deal or why I even carry on about it, but I want something out of it. Some appreciation.
A girl I know told me how her ex also screwed up her one year thing and how he barely showed that he loved her. Im starting to really think it will happen to us too. I know he cares, but somehow someone (or I) need to get into his head and make him do the right things.
Yea, he said "im sorry" about a million times, maybe less, but that was when he was drunk. Do you listen and trust someone when they are drunk? I dont know anymore because sometime I believe drunk words are just all bullshit. But sometimes, you might never know.
And the worst part... he wont remember anything.